Missing Peace

jigsawWhen I was small, I used to spend Sunday afternoons helping Granny with her jigsaw. We’d spend hours poring over the pieces; Columbo in the background, puncturing our companionable silence with an occasional murder.

I still love a good jigsaw.  1000 pieces. Not too much sky or grass or sea. Nothing too complicated with baked beans or 3d. Cats but not horses.  Boats but not oceans. On days when I’m stressed or a bit sad, each piece restores my sanity. The neatness of it; the crisp lines and colours, the feel of the pieces.

A jigsaw is a full-time commitment.  You have to put in the hours and maintain your focus, even when people laugh at you or try to make you go outside/sleep. Round the clock vigilance is required to prevent interference from well-meaning relatives, or excitable cats.

But the worst is when there’s a piece missing. 

You might have a gorgeous picture in place, with flowers and people and borders and houses and everything you could possibly want.  But that one empty space draws the eyes and sucks up the rest. Others might not spot it – but you know it’s there.  And if you let it, that one tiny gap will ruin the whole picture.

When you want something  and you can’t have it, it can feel like the only thing.  And like everything else is nothing. It’s hard to take your eyes off the gap. And most of us have them.  Something we really, really want, but just don’t have. For me it’s a baby. But it could be anything really.  A partner, a job, a new kitchen, a break. The missing piece – the ‘one thing’ that will make life complete.

This is my heart’s cry and what I instinctively feel. But the truth is deeper.The one thing I need – the only thing, is Christ.   And it’s not just that He’s the missing piece – He’s the whole picture.

I’m piecing together a cottage scene.  But He’s building a mosaic of kingdom proportions.  I’m focusing on the gaps – but He’s already the whole. I can’t see it yet; but one day I will. And in His hands, nothing is lost.



4 thoughts on “Missing Peace

  1. Hello Emma ! Firstly I want to say a massive thank you for being so brave and sharing your storyy through your book and this blog, both have provided me with much encouragement.
    I am currently an inpatient in a eating disorders after struggling with an eating disorder for the last 6 years , 3 years with anorexia . It has been such a comfort to here another Christians journey to recovery and it has encouraged me immensely . I read your book and instantly saw the similarities between your story and my story and it instantly brought me comfort . I am so encouraged by the blog which I only discovered a few weeks ago . On my days when I am struggling to find time for God or I am simply feeling weak I can read your blog and I am always pointed to Christ and reminded of his unfailing love and overflowing grace that have lavishes on us and it gives me hope.
    I would very much like to talk more, my email is k.darroch10@gmail.
    Thank you again for being so faithful and blogging regularly . Each post is incredibly helpful and I can’t thank you enough.

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