A New Name

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  1. Aimee
    Dec 07 - 9:29 pm

    I love this Emma. Especially how you ended it! :) xo

  2. caroline
    Dec 08 - 10:24 am

    Such a terrible burden to be fine.

    Personally I’m weak, weary and hanging on by a thread, and most days I don’t care who knows it!
    Except my mother-in-law…to her I’m fine.

  3. Emma
    Dec 08 - 8:21 pm

    thanks Aimee!

  4. Emma
    Dec 08 - 8:22 pm

    I love your honesty Caroline

  5. PWP
    Dec 12 - 8:53 pm

    Been absent for a while, observing the blog from a safe distance but not interacting.

    Tonight the bottom crashed out of my world again. It’s my fault, I got what I deserve. But that only makes it harder to bear. Dealing with it the only way I know how – not particularly healthily.

    My diagnosis (BPD) basically says I’m manipulative and emotionally dysfunctional. And someone else has realised this and ditched me. I try so hard not to be those things, but I seem to be incapable of sustaining close relationships. Yet another one gone.

    Now I’m questioning everything about myself again, all my motives and actions. I can’t see where it went wrong. I guess I am just too much.

    The harder I try to be normal, the less able I am to understand when it all goes wrong. Like now.

  6. caroline
    Dec 13 - 4:18 pm

    Hi PWP!
    Questioning ourselves can be a really good thing, but only when it will lead to repentance and not a spiraling down into despair and shame. Remember that we can deceive ourselves even when trying to be honest!
    I don’t know why berating oneself is so comforting, but I do it too. The Holy Spirit alone truly knows the heart and its motives.
    Know this: He is not done with us. He who began a good work in us will be faithful to complete it. We are not left alone to flail about and drown.

  7. Emma
    Dec 13 - 7:15 pm

    PWP I’m sorry this is such a tough time -but Jesus comes because we are all too much and we all mess up our lives and relationships. Whatever has happened, there will be ways forward and He can work redemption out of it. Please don’t condemn yourself; as Caroline says, we are not left alone. x

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